tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-134782812009-02-21T07:55:50.432-08:00bobgantorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16950918975796546021noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13478281.post-1118239541282046452005-06-08T22:05:00.000-07:002005-06-08T07:05:41.286-07:00last night, I started drinking as soon as I got home. I did not want to be alone, so I decided to try to see double. I cooked a decent meal and set up meals for later this week. but still I couldn't help but become Drunk Vader.<br /><br />It's not even if I want out of this rut. I do, I just don't know how? the key thing I seem to be missing is that people interaction. friends, loveed ones that I can call upon at anytime. or at the very least be around when I'm lonely. which is always.<br /><br />I'm tired of a life that is just filling up time. I'm down to my last dollar. not figuratively, but literally. I will eat baked beans tonight for dinner.<br /><br />GOD, I have to stop being so pathetic. I wouldn't want Chrissy and my Ex Wife to be right.<br />or Michelle, who called me a "fuck" and not in a good way.<br /><br />I really wish someone would just check on me. the few that do, I'm grateful to.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13478281-111823954128204645?l=bobservation.blogspot.com'/></div>bobgantorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16950918975796546021noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13478281.post-1118119615594479682005-06-06T21:45:00.000-07:002005-06-06T21:46:55.596-07:00I'm not that special...I like to hear myself talk like every body else.<br />started this for teh fuck of it.<br />lets see what transpires shall we?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/13478281-111811961559447968?l=bobservation.blogspot.com'/></div>bobgantorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16950918975796546021noreply@blogger.com0